Workout Moves in the Pool

September 25, 2013

The scale has gone up.  Not much, but still.  I'm not going to get discouraged, because I can't think of a single thing I've eaten that I wasn't supposed to.  I blame PMS.  Not to mention I've been in very snappy, terrible moods lately and having crazy cravings.  Definitely PMS.   (don't even ask me if I'm pregnant.  because just no.)

I did a killer workout in the pool the other night.  I felt pretty good about it.  I do realize the scale could be going up because muscle weighs more than fat, but I just need to see the scale going down down down.  I should also be taking my measurements, but I'm not.  I doubt we even have a measuring tape in the house.  (I act like they are hard to find at the store or something.)

So anyway, not sure how many of you workout in the pool, but I thought I'd list the moves I do for anyone interested.  I can definitely feel the burn in my arms, but I'm trying to find ways to feel the burn in my legs. 

meighan's pool workout
supplies you need:
water weights
I currently used the yellow because they are beginner.
You can really feel the resistance with them though.
pool noodle
any old pool noodle will do.
The gym I go to has a room chock full of all these materials.  If you are wanting to do a pool workout and the gym/pool doesn't provide them, the weights are about $30 on amazon and they have a million different kinds.  And we all know a pool noodle is like, a dollar.
Warm Up:  walk up and down the lane of the pool, circling or pushing arms through water for light resistance.  I do this 1-2 times.
Arm Raise:  with weights, hold your hands by your side.  for 45 seconds, raise arms up and down.  break for 15 seconds and repeat twice.
Knee Lifts:  while holding weights down, lift your knees one at a time. start slow and steadily increase your speed.
Jumping Jacks:  with weights, hold your hands by your side to begin.  start doing traditional jumping jack moves, but only bring your arms to right below the surface of the water for good resistance.  do this 45 seconds, rest 15, and repeat twice.

Running in Place:  with weights, run in place as hard as you can for 45 seconds.  rest 15, repeat twice.
Side Steps:  basically a slow jumping jack, take side steps down the lane of the pool, raising your arms with every step.
Leg Lifts:  put the noodle under one foot, raise knee and press foot back down to the bottom.  do for 45 seconds, rest 15, alternate legs, and repeat twice.
Leg Raise:  with the noodle still under your foot, let the noodle raise your leg to the side and then pull it back down to meet your other leg.  you should feel a good bit of resistance.
Push Ups:  hold the sides of the pool ladder and keep your body straight and tight.  pull in and push back, like you were doing a push up.  the resistance going both ways is great.

I'm a pisces and LOVE being in the water, so these are really great exercises for me to do!  I also have a knee injury, so these water workouts help tremendously.  I will be trying extra hard to get these PMS pounds off!

SW: 311
CW: 274.5
+6 since last update (boo!)

the struggle & the scale

September 23, 2013

Shame on me.  My loyal readers (riiight) are waiting for updates and I'm over here playing Candy Crush like a maniac.  Level 23 had me for a WHILE, but I finally bought enough lollipop hammers to just smash the rest of the jelly. That game is addicting, BTW.

I keep forgetting I had surgery.  My wounds are healed, I am done with my Heparin shots, and I keep forgetting that just five weeks ago today I had surgery.

For so many years, I tried to change my lifestyle with just a snap of my fingers, knowing it was unrealistic and stupid and I'd be down at the coke machine before the end of the day, swearing I'd try again tomorrow.  Obviously it didn't get me anywhere other than a miserable 311 pounds.  God that makes me cringe.  I never saw myself that big.  I know people say that, but I really didn't.  I'm not stupid, I knew I was big.  But even now, just five weeks later, I look at pictures and don't know that person.  And I look in the mirror and don't recognize myself.  I keep forgetting I had surgery.

I know I'm not used to all the changes.  Lately, I've been wanting the old, bad food a lot more.  It's a struggle.  They kept telling me at the seminars that it wouldn't be easy, but I underestimated what they were saying.  IT.IS.HARD.  I don't want to eat yogurt sometimes.  I want to walk to McDonald's and get a 10 piece nuggets and a huge coke.  But the best part of the struggle is knowing, without a shadow of a doubt, that I can.not do that.  It will make me sick, stretch my pouch and make the scale go up-  none of which I am a fan.

So my head is getting used to these changes, slowly but surely.  I've even eaten out a couple more times since the great Ruby Tuesday vomiting incident.  Ben and I had Zoe's Kitchen yesterday and I had something they call the "Under 500 Protein Power Plate."  They make it sound so interesting, yet it's grilled chicken on top of their mayo-less slaw.  It was good with a little side of salsa, but I felt a bit more full than I'd like after we ate.  I also had a Jimmy John's Un-wich today with just turkey and tomatoes.  (if you've never had an Un-wich, it's just a lettuce wrap.)  The lettuce made me feel gassy almost immediately, so I ate the turkey out of it and felt pretty satisfied.

So all in all, things are going well.  I'm still doing water aerobics.  It's really just me with the pool weights and a noodle making up workouts as I go.  But hey!  It seems to be working, because the scale is dropping.

Which reminds me... I almost forgot to tell y'all that I've lost 42.5 pounds.  In exactly five weeks.  The statement "that blows my mind" is such an understatement.  I'm so thankful for this surgery.  It is already changing my life in so many ways.  And there is so much more to come.

SW:  311
CW:  268.5
-42.5 lbs

shock & vom

September 18, 2013

I've been trying to update this thing and I find myself either too tired or just too busy.  But fear not, I am here.  Ben joined the gym with me and we've been working out together, which I love.  I have been doing the pool more because it doesn't hurt my knee like the machines do.  The past few days I've really been feeling the fatigue they told me would come between weeks 2-4.  I'm on my 4th post op week, so I guess that still counts.  Nevertheless, I'm taking B12 everyday and it doesn't even really do anything for me.

I'm still taking the blood thinner shots.  I've become quite the professional at giving myself shots.  Also, if anyone else needs a shot, I'm your gal.  Not real sure why you wouldn't just get one from the doctor, but hey, never hurts to offer.

I weighed myself over the weekend to find that I had dropped FIVE POUNDS.  I stood in the bathroom, jaw dropped & in total shock, for like 5 minutes.  It's just coming off so fast!  Some days are weird.  I forget that I had this surgery, yet still make all the necessary changes.  I was very quickly reminded of my surgery and just how small my stomach is on Sunday night when Ben and I went out to dinner for the first time since surgery.

I thought really long and hard about what I could eat.  We looked at the nutritional values for all the meals at Ruby Tuesdays before we went, so I was prepared and knew what I needed to order.  The hickory bourbon salmon sounded amazing and met all of my needed criteria, so I was pretty excited!  I should've been thinking a little bit clearer though, because I also ordered steamed broccoli.  I thought since it said "steamed" it would be soft and totally fine for my stomach.

A few minutes into the meal, I had to excuse myself.  Good thing I got up when I did, because the next thing I know I am vomiting in the Ruby Tuesday's bathroom.  (If you couldn't tell, I like to keep it super classy.)  Throwing up is a totally new feeling since surgery.  It feels as though you have this huge amount in your stomach that needs to come up, but it was really just the few bites I had taken.  And once they came up, I didn't feel any better.  I was still nauseated and had stabbing pains in my pouch, I'm sure from the broccoli trying to pass through and not being able to.  The hole from my stomach to my intestines is only the size of a dime, so I know that broccoli didn't make it through.  Even yesterday I still felt a little queasy and didn't have an appetite for any food.  The bariatric coordinator warned me about this happening, but it still really sucked.
I'm really excited to have reach the 30 pound mark!  20 more until 50 pounds gone forever.  I'm hoping to lose those 20 pounds in the next month so Ben and I can take engagement pictures!  So much exciting stuff happening at once!
SW: 311
CW: 278.5

My Gastric Bypass Story Pt. 2: Getting Insurance to Pay

September 11, 2013

three year weight documentation
The first thing I did was go back through all the doctors I've seen in the past three years and get ALL of their office notes.  Unfortunately, most of them did not have my weight documented.  I needed one from 2010, 2011, & 2012.  I was able to find weight documented office notes from 2009, 2011 and 2012, but not 2010.  Luckily, the insurance allows you to send in a full body picture for only one year instead of an office note.  I had a lot of panic and anxiety over finding all of this, but luckily it worked out.
seven month doctor supervised visits

I have blue cross insurance and they had SO many requirements to be approved. In January, I started the insurance required monthly appointments with my primary care physician, Dr. Han.  He was so supportive and always made sure that any issue I had was taken care of.  On my first visit with him for surgery, I also found out I had asthma.  Who knew?  A few visits later I found out I was clenching my jaw from stress.  He helped me through so much.  So towards the end of every month I would go see Dr. Han.  I couldn't miss an appointment or I had to start counting the months all over again.  Dr. Han would weigh me, check my blood pressure, make sure I was still following my chosen diet plan, calculate my BMI, and sign off on my progress. I had to do this for SEVEN months straight.  I'm not sure if the insurance is trying to trick you or not, but they will tell you it's a "6 month doctor supervised weight loss program."  Okay, well it is- BUT.  The first appointment only counts as a consultation.  So after the first visit, you have six more to go.  Tricky tricky! At the end of July, I was finally done with all my visits and had been given the clearance for surgery.  What I thought would be the longest seven months of my life turned out to be the quickest.  I can't even explain how fast it went by.

sleep study(ies)
Another crazy part of going through this process is having a sleep study.  I found a place close to my house that did these and luckily they did them on the weekend.  So I went sometime in June after work on a Friday and was put in a room that looked like a hotel room.  They hooked me up to what seemed like hundreds of cords and probes.  My legs, chest, face, neck and head were all covered in cords hooked to a machine that would read everything from my leg movements at night to when I stopped breathing and for how long.  Apparently, when you stop breathing due to sleep apnea,  you kick your legs like your struggling.  This scared me!  I was sure there was no way I did that in my sleep.  Wrong again.  I had mild sleep apnea, I did stop breathing a few times throughout the night and I did kick my legs while struggling for air.  I was shocked!  (I'm still not convinced this info is accurate, because how can you even sleep normally while hooked up to all those cords?!)  So I stayed until Saturday morning around 6:00 when they came in, unplugged me and told me I could go home.  They also gave me a special formula for getting the probe goop out of my hair when I got home, which was NO easy task.
A few weeks later is when I got the results about having the mild sleep apnea, kicking, etc... They told me I needed to come back in for a CPAP study.  Surely they were kidding... Nope, wrong again.  So I scheduled it for another Friday a couple of weeks out.  Same process-  cords and probes all over- with the added bonus of a CPAP mask.  Again, getting a good night's rest with all that is just about impossible.  But they said I slept much better and should feel much more energized from having a lot more oxygen during the night.  And I did.  I was advised to purchase and wear a CPAP until surgery, which I also did.  (Ben wears one, so you can imagine that we were like, the sexiest couple ever.  Getting into bed with our CPAP's on at night... totally hot.)  Before surgery, I had to let the doctor check my CPAP compliance to make sure I really was wearing it at night.  Once they approved my compliance, I checked the CPAP off my list.
psychiatric evaluation
A lot of my friends weren't sure I was going to make it through this portion... I mean, I CAN be kind of crazy.  When I called to set up the appointment with the recommended Psychiatrist, they told me to mark at least six hours off my day for the eval.  Um, seriously?  So I took a day off work (coordinated with the day my dad had knee replacement surgery, so it worked out) and tried to get as much crazy out of my system as possible.  When I arrived at the office, I did the usual paperwork & copay combination.  I was surprised at how quickly they took me back, but it wasn't to see the doctor.  They put me in a room full of cubicles & snacks.  (not sure if that was some sort of trick to see if I would be tempted to eat or if that really was just where they kept their food.  Again, tricky tricky.)  I sat down only to be handed a huge (no literally, huge) stack of papers.  There were about 16 tests (with about 200 questions each) I had to take- all asking the same thing but wanting different kinds of answers.  Like: true/false, scale of 1-10, very true-mostly true-not true-never true, etc... The questions mostly consisted of things like, "do you see people that others cannot see?"  or "do you often want to harm yourself or others around you?"  or  "do you feel as though you have no self worth because you are overweight?"  Etc...
After the 16 tests, I had to look at an ink blob (yes they really make you do those) and write down what I saw.  Then I was given three pictures:  a boy sitting in a doorway of what looked like an old schoolhouse, a shadow of a man looking out a white window, and a boy putting together a model airplane.  I then had to write three sentences about each picture:  what happened before the picture was taken, what was happening in the picture, and what happened after the picture.  Then I had about five or six more small tests to take, asking about my diet and what information I knew about the surgery I was having.  NO WONDER they ask you to take up to six hours out of your day!  Doing all of that took me almost three hours!
Finally after finishing all of that, I had to wait on the staff to "score" my tests, which took about another hour.  After almost four hours of being in the office, I finally met with the Psychiatrist.  He GRILLED ME on everything from surgery to my relationship with Ben.  45 minutes later, he said he saw no red flags and would send my approval letter for surgery.  The insurance definitely does NOT make it easy on you.
support group/nutrition education class
A month out from surgery, I had to attend a mandatory support group.  They hold them once a month so that other patient's can come and share their struggles and successes and future patient's can see what they are in store for.  My insurance didn't require this, but my surgeon did.  They would not request approval from my insurance until I did these two last things.  After going to the support group, I was so excited about surgery.  Seeing people's before and after photo's and how far they'd come was amazing.  Hearing that their diabetes went away literally over night and they were able to stop taking their 15-20 pills a day was so inspiring to me.  I knew this would be me in ten years if I didn't have this surgery.  So if there was ever a moment when I was nervous or hesitant before, it all went away after this class.  Ben, of course, was with me and he was excited for me as well.  We were in this together and ready to get it over with.
The last thing I had to do was go to a four hour nutrition class.  (For anyone thinking of having this surgery, it requires a LOT of time away from work.  I'm so thankful my job was understanding and supportive of everything I needed to do!)  They talked about everything you could eat after surgery and everything you'd never be able to eat again.  I learned that I would have to take multi-vitamins twice a day, a calcium chewable three times a day, and B12 twice a week- FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.  I also learned that I would have to give myself blood thinner shots for 30 days after surgery to avoid getting a blood clot. (more on that debacle in Pt. 3)  I left the nutrition class, had all of my pre-surgery work up done, and went to play the waiting game with my insurance.  Those were also the slowest few days of my life.

the dreaded progress photo.

September 9, 2013

So when I started this blog, I wanted to be real.  I don't know what's worse, telling people your weight or showing people what you looked like at your worst.  Regardless, here are my progress pictures so far.

The left is the day after I came home from the hospital, so 3 days post op.  
The one on the right was last night.  

Here's to being real.


It's an extremely mutual feeling in our household that the weekends are the absolute hardest when it comes to eating.  Saturdays were for BBQ.  Or Cracker Barrel.  Sundays were pizza day.  Or Taco Bell night.  You get the picture.  So Saturday, even though Alabama wasn't playing, Ben had our friend Kenton over to watch all the games.  Ben bought some pre-made hot wings from Publix and just looking at them made my mouth water.  One of my dad's many specialties along with chili and spaghetti are definitely buffalo wings.  PEOPLE.  FOOTBALL SEASON=BUFFALO WINGS.  Needless to say, I was dying.

So I did a little googling and found this website chock full of recipes for gastric bypass patients. (hallelujah!)  So I found a buffalo chicken salad recipe.  Let me tell you how excited I was.  A kid in a candy store had nothing on me.  So we headed off to the store and bought all the supplies I needed:  canned chicken, buffalo sauce (extra mild as not to irritate the pouch), blue cheese, LF mayo, and Greek yogurt.  I got a little nervous because I don't like blue cheese, but I wanted to follow the recipe exactly so it would match the nutritional values the recipe gave me.

After whipping up the mixture, I popped it in the oven so it could be sort of like a dip.  When it was finally done, I was SO ready to taste it!

and it was disgusting.

I was SO disappointed!  It was the blue cheese!  I figured if I only put a teeny tiny bit in the recipe, it couldn't possibly be that bad.  I WAS WRONG.  It tasted like nothing but blue cheese.  Maybe the buffalo sauce wasn't hot enough to mask the blue cheese.  Whatever the case, I didn't eat it.  Just another gastric bypass lesson learned I guess.

Other than my buffalo chicken salad fail, the weekend was a success.  Ben joined the gym!  So excited for us to be doing this together.  The gym sucks, what can I say?  But I want to be toned up, not loosey goosey!  I even dropped some pounds.  Not bad for my three week surgery anniversary.

SW: 311
CW: 285
-26 lbs

good times & hard times

September 6, 2013

Last night was hard.  I went to the gym but was not feeling my workout.  Nothing seemed to be working.  The music wasn't right, the bike kept going into pause mode even though I was pedaling, and I just didn't feel that I had that much energy.  I wouldn't say I felt defeated, just not as motivated as usual.  I also spoke to a personal trainer about their rates- um, expensive- and I'm thinking about hiring one at some point.  I think I need to lose a significant amount of weight and then tighten up.  ...Right?  Truthfully, I don't know what the correct process is.  All I know is that I am doing 30 minutes 5 times a week like they said.

When I got home from my less than stellar workout, Ben was home from out of town and I was so glad to see him.  He's always so supportive and encouraging that it was difficult with him being gone-  even for just two nights.  I was in a good mood and we were watching football, but every single commercial was about food.  New Burger King fry burger.  New Ruby Tuesday Pretzel bun burger.  Dunkin Donuts breakfast steak griller.  Ice cold Pepsi.  Ice cold Coca-Cola.  And on and on and on... In that moment, I missed the bad food.  I wanted to get in the car and go through every drive-thru and gorge myself until I was sick (which I would be).  Even knowing how bad those foods were for me, I ate them for so long.  I'm so lucky to have Ben, truly.  He noticed I was upset, asked me to talk about it and we did.  I know these feelings are normal and I know I made the decision to have surgery- I don't regret it- but that doesn't mean it isn't hard sometimes. 

And I know it will get easier.  I keep forgetting that I'm less than 3 weeks out of surgery.  It seems like forever ago!  Monday will be 3 weeks officially that I had surgery.  That is such a small amount of time and I forget that I am still adjusting to everything.  This is where I really need to work on having more patience.  My nickname is Veruca for nothing.

I fell asleep feeling comforted and reassured that everything was going to be fine.  And when I woke up, the scale said I had lost another pound.  So all that worrying for nothing!  I should take the fact that my pants are literally falling off as a sign that things are going in the right direction... lol.
This weekend I have a meeting with a fundraising team for Leukemia & Lymphoma, and Ben and I are going to look at a wedding venue. Too many good things going on right now to not feel inspired and motivated!
SW:  311
CW:  286.5
-24.5 lbs

My Gastric Bypass Story Pt. 1

September 5, 2013

In December 2009, I started dating Ben.  I knew pretty much right away that he was the one.  He always loved me for who I was-  silly, crazy, tempermental, and overweight.  He continually told me how beautiful I was.  Somehow, from 2009 to December 2012, I had gained a significant amount of weight.  Probably about 40 pounds.  Not working out, never cooking and only eating food from a drive-thru will do that I guess.  We sat down one night on the porch and Ben asked me, very delicately, if I had ever considered lap-band.  I wasn't offended-  I knew he loved me and wanted the best for me.  It was during this conversation that I knew we would get married.  Ben said he wanted me to think about surgery for our future, as husband and wife and as parents.  He was telling me something I already knew:  I needed to change.  I had considered surgery before, so it wasn't a brand new idea.  My mom and I had gone to a seminar in late 2007/early 2008 and I never followed up with seeing the doctor.  I was pretty confident (and a little cocky).  My motto was, "if they don't like me how I am, they don't deserve to be with me anyway."  Which is true-  to a certain extent.  Hearing Ben express how much he loved me and wanted me to be healthy changed my whole outlook.

So later that same month I scheduled an appointment for myself and Ben to attend a seminar at St. Vincent's East Hospital.  I sat in the front row;  I wanted to know everything.  After the roughly 2 hour long seminar, I was so excited.  People had spoken about how their lives had changed and their health had improved.  I wanted that for myself and I was now sure that I wanted to proceed with the surgery process.

It took a while to get an appointment with Dr. Miles.  I didn't see him until January.  He informed me of the many things I needed to do for my insurance to pay for this and assured me that I was a perfect candidate for surgery.  The first (and most important) thing I had to do was visit my primary care physician and start my 7-month long doctor supervised weight loss.  I had to have an appointment with my PCP every month for 7 months and if I missed an appointment I had to start over.  So I started the process, thinking that the next 7 months were going to be the longest 7 months of my entire life.

Boy was I wrong...

TV & food

September 4, 2013

Hump Day, whoop whoop!  Does anyone else just think that commercial is hilarious?  Because I crack up every single time I see it on TV.  Really glad it's Wednesday already!  I've been to the gym 3 days in a row and I must say, I'm getting kind of addicted.  I have been known to talk myself out of things, but yesterday I was so excited to get to the gym.  Gold's Gym is somewhere that I always thought would intimidate me and make me shy away from the gym experience.  But yesterday, I marched in there like I owned it and did my thing.  They have this amazing thing called a TV hooked to their cardio machines and one episode of Wheel of Fortune later I was done!  Geniuses, I tell you.  I rode the bike for 30 minutes and did one lap around the track as a cool down.  I don't honestly know what it is about the recumbent bike, but I love it.  I just keep thinking that I need to get my arms some action too, but I'm not quite ready to go down with the iron pumping gentleman and grab some weights.  Not yet, anyway.

Today a drug rep brought lunch to work-  hamburger steak, mashed potatoes, & green beans.  Ooooooh it sounds SO delicious, I won't even lie.  But if I want the scale to keep going down (which I do) then I need to stick to what's in the lunchbox.  It's hard.  I'm not even going to lie and say it's easy.  IT.IS.HARD.  But I made this decision and I'm going to make myself the healthiest person I can be.

Lastly for today, I just want to say thank you.  I know that I'm only a few posts into this blog, and it probably sounds redundant, but so many of you have reached out to me.  A girl from middle school who I haven't seen in 15 years reached out with advice because she had the surgery.  My cousin's friend from high school also reached out, having had the surgery as well.  And I got the absolute sweetest Facebook message last night from an old friend from middle/high school.  It just about brought me to tears.  I started this to document everything I was going through and to never forget what it felt to be so heavy.  The outpouring of support and encouragement was completely unexpected.  Thank you all so much!

SW: 311
CW: 287.5
- 23.5 lbs

fatigue & fruit cups

September 3, 2013

Today was another day when I just kept thinking, "holy crap I really did it."  For several years, I've toyed with the idea of gastric bypass.  It was always just an idea that I would talk about with my mom.  We even went to a seminar several years ago, but I never followed up with it.  It's amazing how things change when you are really ready to make a change.

I also keep reading that between two & four weeks post-op I will start to feel fatigue and exhaustion.  I've been feeling really great-  energized, motivated and even more prepared with my food choices.  But today it's as though I can't keep my eyes open.  I'm hoping that it was just the long weekend and sleeping in too late. I don't know that I will be able to handle 2-4 weeks of feeling fatigue!

Another change I'm getting used to is packing a lunch box every morning.  I pack two protein shakes, one for the drive in to work and one for the drive home.  I find that this is the easiest way to get in the majority of my needed protein.  (protein is needed so your hair won't fall out- I DO NOT want my hair to fall out!)  I also pack yogurt, individual fruit cups (OBSESSED with peach), some Milo's Splenda tea, etc... Enough for me to eat several times a day, which honestly is hard to do at work.  Doable, but hard.

Greek yogurt is also another thing I'm getting used to.  I tried the Chobani brand once and it was so sour-bleh!  I couldn't eat it.  So I gave the Yoplait Greek 100 with peaches a try and LOVE it.  The texture does take getting used to, but it's by the far the best one I've tried.

Ben is out of town this week, so I want to see if he thinks I look any different when he comes home.  I've been told several times that my face looks a lot smaller, so yay for that!  As always, just taking it one day at a time.  Got my gym clothes ready and I'm hoping I have at least some energy left for a 30 minute workout! 

SW: 311
CW: 287.5
-23.5 lbs

Healthy (Vegetarian) Southwest Bowl


  • 1 bag Morningstar Griller's Crumbles
  • 1 can  Black Beans
  • 1 container pre-chopped yellow onion
  • 1 container pre-prepared pico de gallo
  • 1 package Chobani original greek yogurt
  • 1 bag reduced fat shredded cheese
  • 1 bottle Bolthouse Farms Salsa Ranch Yogurt Dressing
The Morninstar crumbles are pre-cooked, so you just heat them up in a pan.  I heated them in a skillet with the onions exactly as I would if I were browning ground beef.  I rinsed the black beans and heated them in a separate pot, keeping them on low.  Once the crumbles and onions are thoroughly heated, make your bowl!  I stacked mine with black beans first, crumbles, pico, cheese, greek yogurt and then just a splash of the salsa ranch yogurt dressing.  This bowl was so incredibly satisfying!  Thanks to Sami for the suggestion of greek yogurt instead of sour cream!  I couldn't even tell a difference. (and of course you can tweak this with lettuce, rice, chicken, etc... those are just things I can't eat yet!)

The yogurt dressing can be found in your produce section.  It was something I just happened to stumble upon and was pleasantly surprised that it was very healthy!  And guys-  I love that I'm finding new and satisfying things to eat so that I don't feel deprived or on my own with food.  Ben ate this bowl with me and loved it!

workout & motivation

September 2, 2013

For the first time in a very long time I was excited to get on the scale this morning.  I just knew I had to have dropped some weight since my workout yesterday. And I did!  Down another 1.5 lbs!  I was so excited.  It's so funny because as an overweight person, getting on the scale is never exciting.  So many things are changing for the better and I am ecstatic! For the first time in my life, I feel motivated and optimistic that what I'm doing will work.

SW: 311
CW: 288.5
-22.5 lbs

football & food

September 1, 2013

This weekend has been really great so far.  Yesterday, Ben and I went to my cousins house for the first Alabama game of the year.  Kimberly is always cooking and making fun things to eat, so she tried really hard to make some food that I could enjoy.  She had some leftover marinara sauce with no meat and told me to pick up a spaghetti squash on the way over.  I've seen posts about spaghetti squash ALL over Pinterest, but had never tried it, so I was pretty excited.  She taught me how to cook it and I was shocked at how much it looked like noodles!  And let me tell you... having that first taste of "spaghetti" was amazing.  I was so happy to have a real meal.  Alabama won the game against Virginia Tech (woohoo!) and we went to get mani/pedi's while the guys watched football.  So all in all, a great day.

I had a real craving for Moe's or Chipotle the other day.  One of their chicken and rice bowls was just calling out to me!  Ben and I went to Wal-Mart on Friday night to pick up the supplies.  It turned out SO yummy!  And chock full of protein, too.  It was another delicious "real" meal. (recipe post coming for those interested!) To top off my Sunday, I went to the gym for the first time since surgery.  The bariatric coordinator suggested that I start out doing 30 minutes 4-5 times a week.  So I did the recumbent bike and the treadmill for 15 minutes each.  Even though I'm only down 20 pounds, I really do feel a lot more energized.  I had my earphones, my music and my Powerade Zero and I was ready to go.  I felt really good afterwards, too.

P.S. Powerade Zero in Fruit Punch is probably the best drink I've ever had!  It is so good.  No calories, no sugar, no carbs... check, check, and check.  Yum yum.

One thing I did discover this week was to NEVER, ever, EVER! get on the scale at night.  I already knew this, but I thought that with surgery the scale would go down at all times.  NOPE.  It definitely still goes up. I have to constantly remind myself that this surgery is a tool for me to use to my advantage.  So the gym is going to be my friend and I am going to do everything in my power to be a smaller, healthier person!

SW:  311
CW:  290
-21 lbs
(I sure wish that scale would move down!!)