this is me rambling like a crazy person, because that's what I do these days. aka, wedding stress. aka, longest post title ever.

September 10, 2014

Is this even happening right now?  I haven't stepped into blog world in such a long time.  It's no secret that life has been extremely busy and hectic the past several, several months.

I am 24 days away from marrying my best friend and soulmate, which makes me happy in so many ways.  But with that comes the never-ending stress of being a bride.  I worry about everything.  If it even remotely has to do with the wedding, it is something I stress about.  People, things, events, RSVP cards (they are pre-stamped for a damn reason, people!!), PMS, being on my period during our honeymoon (I have a calendar which tells me so), tying up loose ends for everything, finding a cake topper, meeting with the cake people(!!!), buying a garter, do I need two garters(?), getting my hair to act right because I'm doing it myself, ditto for makeup, getting everyone at the right place at the right time for the rehearsal & wedding, pictures, etc... the list goes on and on.  omg, just, Jesus.  (this is how my brain works these days at every waking moment.  and if you think I'm getting any kind of good sleep at night, you are the most wrong ever.)

I keep telling myself that 15 months of stress is way too much stress for a 12 hour event.  And when we got engaged, I was totally kidding myself thinking it would be "easy and stress free" planning this wedding.  I still have yet to figure out if it's just me and the fact that I worry and over-analyze every single thing and have my whole life, or if it's truly this stressful to plan a wedding.  Maybe a bit of both, who knows.

I know one thing-  I will be so incredibly happy when October 4th finally comes and I can walk down to Ben and finally be his wife.  I know things will smooth out after the wedding and a lot of normalcy will return to our every day lives, but getting there truly is the hardest part.

With all that being said, I can't even express how grateful I am for the generosity of our friends and family over the past 15 months, especially my parents and Ben's parents.  I know that with the amount of stress also comes this huge blessing; marrying my best friend, my soulmate, the person God truly made for me to be happy with for the rest of our lives.

I feel like the luckiest girl in the whole world.
(p.s. I'm glad to be back.  at least for today.)


  1. Ah! Take a deeeeeeeeeeeeeep breath!! Like I said in my email, if it doesn't get done - it wasn't meant to be done! Try and give yourself a day here and there to avoid the wedding at all costs, so you have some time to just relax and enjoy these last few days as a bride! Everything is going to work out just perfectly and you're going to have the best day ever!!!!

    1. Good advice Samantha. Relax and enjoy this time. All brides go through this. Remember, you have good friends and family there for you.

  2. Ahhh yes, and when the stress gets the best of you...grab a cocktail with Nadine :) Can't wait for tomorrow!!!!!

    Everything is going to be fine. At the end of the day, as long as you are married to Ben...everything was perfect!

  3. Don't stress, lady (easier said than done, I know)! It will all be PERFECT! We can chat tomorrow night, but if you are on the pill then you can stop your period from coming while honeymooning, I had two garters, I got my cake topper from Etsy but didn't even end up using one, and there are so many other things I can help calm your nerves on. Deep breaths in and out. You've got this!

  4. I know everyone's already said it...but don't stress! The most important part of that day is actually getting married to your best boo friend. I also had two garters; I can't for the life of me even remember what my cake topper looked like...and you've got cocktails with the baddest bitches around tomorrow. If anything, a nice glass of wine should help!

  5. If you're married at the end of the day, it has all worked out! :) I had a long engagement, and by wedding time I was so over everything that I was ready to elope. Morgan is right! My period was scheduled right in the smack dab middle of our honeymoon, but that's an easy fix! :) I can't wait to see every detail from your wedding! I know it will all be absolutely beautiful!!

  6. Just breathe and focus on one thing at a time - it'll all fall into place.
    I've photographed a LOT of weddings over the past few years, and the most common consensus that I've heard from all the brides (and grooms) is that they wish they would've just enjoyed the day and the days leading up to it a whole lot more.
    Don't sweat the small things :)

  7. It is totally normal to feel this amount of stress and just be overwhelmed at times by the details. Breathe. Breathe. Breathe. Things will come together beautifully and at the end of it all, you will be the wife of your beloved. Nothing is more awesome than that, trust me! :)

  8. You got this. Your day is going to be amazing and you're going to have so much fun. It's totally normal to freak out about all if those things, but in the end it's more about the commitment you are making with Ben, not cake toppers. Breathe sister. And just enjoy the ride.