knowing the difference.

February 12, 2014

Lately, I've been fluctuating up and down with the same 3 pounds.  And it is REALLY freaking frustrating.  I'm still working with Gene The Personal Trainer, so I'm sure I'm losing inches and gaining muscle, but still.  GO DOWN SCALE.  GO DOWN.  Right now I think I'm at 226.  But I don't know because I didn't weigh myself this morning.  So I could be back up 3 pounds.  Again.  Did I mention this is all super frustrating?

Just to be quite frank, this whole "muscle weighs more than fat" thing pisses me off.  I know it's better that way, and muscle is good and fat is bad, blah blah blah.  But for some reason, I can't stop focusing on the number on the scale!  226 is not my goal weight, people.  So I need that thing to start moving.

Ok, now for a little honesty on my part.  I haven't been doing so well with the food aspect of my journey.  I've figured out that my body is becoming more tolerant to all the things I'm not supposed to have.  Like bread.  Cake.  Sweets.  Potatoes.  And how do I know my body can tolerate them?  Because I've been eating them!  No wonder those 3 pounds keep coming back, right?  The biggest part of this weight loss journey, especially with surgery, is knowing the difference.  The reason they tell you to eat so much protein and very little carbs is because that is how your body works the best with surgery and helps you lose the weight.  I'm almost six months out from surgery and life is becoming "normal" again.  I can go out with friends, eat a much wider variety of things, and even have a glass of wine.  But I have to know that these are things I shouldn't do.  They delay my weight loss and that was not the purpose of having the surgery.  I knew there were going to be a lot of life-long changes I would have to make, so now the biggest (and sometimes hardest) thing to do is stick to them.

I'm not giving up.  There will be bumps in the road along the way, I know that.  But I'm not quitting, ever.  Because my goal is to be healthy and happy.  For my future husband.  My future kids.  And most importantly, for me.


  1. i hope those pesky 3 pounds go away! glad you can eat more food choices now. yea, you are just exploring all your options right now b/c it has been a while since you ate those foods. you will be back on track!

  2. YOU'VE GOT THIS! Knowing the difference is the first step. Those 3lbs will go away in no time! <3

  3. I know how you feel about knowing what you should do and wanting certain lifestyle experiences all at the same time. I struggle with that myself every day. I try really hard to only have a drink on Saturdays, and stick to one or two "fun" meals a week and the rest of the time stay healthy and portion controlled. I notice that even those two fun meals keep me gaining and losing the same 5 lbs over and over again. A cycle that I cant stand.

    But, you are working with your trainer and totally gaining some serious muscle right now. Muscles help burn extra calories and blast that can only be a good thing! Even if it keeps the scale from moving as quickly as you like. Rome wasnt built in a day.

  4. I have hit the same kind of thing this past week or two as well, but you know what we do? We just keep going. Try and make the best choices you can every day, and don't freak out if you slip a little bit. You are training hard, ger ur trainer to check ur body fat next tim u get weighed, even if the scales aren't going down, if ur training hard I bet that will go down. Muscle weighs more than the same amount of fat, so ur inches can go down, whilst ur weight doesn't!!! Keep going!!! xx