surgery & struggles.

I had gastric bypass surgery on August 19, which makes me 12 days out.  Life is crazy.  I'm constantly trying to get enough protein and drink enough water without making myself sick.  And it's hard.

When I went to the grocery store the weekend before surgery, I spent $200 on everything I thought I would need.  I knew protein was my major focus, but somehow I lost it along the way.  I ended up with fruit cups,  SF pudding, SF jello, Milo's Splenda tea, water, crystal light, melba toast, cheese, eggs, milk, Special K protein cereal, canned veggies, soup, etc... And I'm finding it harder and harder to get in my needed 60-80g of protein a day.  It has become very clear that I am going to have to start cooking and preparing meals.  And don't even get me started on not being able to have meat for two more weeks.

Today was also my first day back at work, which proved more difficult than I thought it would be.  The office manager texted me and asked if we were interested in ordering lunch... and I just felt like I couldn't not order something.  I had a lunchbox full of food from home!  I'm going to chalk this up as a prime example of head hunger.  I ended up ordering a tuna salad wrap from Roly Poly and just eating the tuna salad out of it.  I did check the nutritional facts and it was packed with protein, so I didn't feel like I was doing anything wrong.  Having gone through this whole surgery process and recovering, I am definitely not going to do anything to jeopardize my weight loss or my life.  The pouch is so small and still currently held together with staples, I have to be super careful.  Thankfully, so far so good.

I look forward to the journey and sharing it with you all.  And I've never, never, ever told anyone my weight.  Ever.  But in order to keep an honest journal and keep myself real throughout this whole process, I will post my weight at the end of every post.

Dear God help me.

SW:  311

CW: 290

- 21 lbs